Love, Music, & Eviction Threats
Well today I did something I haven’t done in a while. For anybody who has known me longer than a year they know that I have a little bit of an addiction. Try as I might to fight it I always seem to come back to it. I know it’s a bad habit but I continue. That habit is buying cd’s thats right Jon is a music junky. In the last two weeks I have bought 4 cd’s and I am planning on getting one more. Last week I got the new Five Deez album Kommunicator which I am loving and today alone I bought BE by Common, The Soul Mixtape by DJ Jazzy Jeff, and Right About Now: The Sucka Free Mixtape by Talib Kweli. Now before you start laughing at me I only payed full price for Five Deez as it turns out the Sam Goody near me is closing down and the cd’s were cheaper than normal so I got some deals. I plan on buying one more cd and that would be Donuts by the late great J Dilla aka Jay Dee. I gotta get that one I mean first of all the man passed away only days after the release of his album and furthermore its just tight then I am going to take a break and fight my addiction for a while. Now I might’ve forgotten to mention that I did my cd buying while hanging out with my friend Colin hold on a sec lemme check......yep I did. Well now you know and anyway we also rented some movies but due to me having to return to the retched place aka my house we only watched one and that just happened to be Stewie Griffin the untold story which was hilarious. I love family guy so much although it wasn’t nearly as bad as they made it out to be as far as language and stuff even though I think that was part of the joke having people wonder how far they would take it. It was hilarious though. So after the fun I get to come home to the retched place and be threatened to be kicked out of a house we are about to lose anyway (more on that another day) because my room isn’t clean and the kitchen isn’t cleaned all the way. Now little does the diabetic hypocrite know but I would like nothing more to be out of the house away from her and on my own. However due to multiple financial issues the majority of which are my fault I can’t afford most of the apartments around here and even if I could my credit sucks so that just might be an issue too. I really hate getting treated like a criminal and terrible son just because I don’t like cleaning. I’m also tired of being constantly being disrespected and then expected to respond with the utmost respect. Last time I checked in order to get respect you had to earn it by giving it. I have never done drugs, I have never come home or been drunk at all in fact about 2 years ago I gave up alcohol all together. I don’t try and bring girls home or any of that other mess. I don’t do these things out of respect for myself and respect for her but it doesn’t seem to matter. I’d love to tell her this but it never works I have tried believe you me I have tried. All I know is somebody is going to be very sad and sitting around wondering why her son never calls or comes around anymore. That sounds bad, and to be honest it hurts to say it and to think it I do not want things that way but that seems how it is going to end up if things don’t change soon . I know this taking a bit of a depressing turn here but I needed to vent and to be honest that is why I started blogging in the first place. So I could say what is on my mind with minimal consequences at least I hope minimal. Well I think I shall end there. So until next time check out these websites for more info on the cd's i bought today
http://www.rapsterrecords.com
httP://www.common-music.com
http://www.groovinusa.com
http://www.talibkweli.com
I would've put them as links but my brain isn't working right at the moment and i can't get the links to show up.
until next time
E-Z
Thursday, March 09, 2006
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
Block Parties and Stuff
well on Monday I got to see Dave Chapelle’s Block Party, and it was pretty *expletive deleted* cool. Every single performer was on point for what you got to see of them (more on that later) Chapelle was funny as always not that I ever doubted he would be. I mean you had the Roots, Mos Def, Kweli, Common, Kanye, Erykah Badu, Jill Scott, Dead Prez , an impressive marching band, and of course the on stage reunion of the Fugees. To top that off I saw it with my special friend who I talked a bit about in my last entry so that just made the night better anyway. As far as the movie goes I will be getting it when it comes out on dvd but I am dissapointed in one thing, and that is that they just didn’t show enough of the performances. I understand they had to cram a lot into a certain amount of time but hey I would’ve been willing to sit their longer. Hopefully the dvd will either be extended or have some of the performances as special features. The best performances of the movie I think had to be when mighty Mos Def, and Talib Kweli did their Blackstar classic Definition with a live band.....one word HOTNESS. Jill Scott brought the house down too but when doesn’t she, Kanye and the marching band doing Jesus Walks was nice as ever too, and of course the whole Fugees performance of Nappy Heads (been a long long time since I heard that one) and Ms. Hill Killing us all softly with her song she even missed a line in the song but she made up for it very quickly. It was a beautiful thing truly it was. Hopefully also with the success of the block party people will start realizing that intelligent hip hop still exist and we will see a shift back to it in the mainstream. So that was fun but afterwards I began to wonder if I was going to host a block party who would I have perform at it (this is of course assuming I could pull this off...anybody ever see wayne’s world 2 it could happen). Well I thought about it and yes I would have some of the acts from this one return basically Mos and Kweli, The Roots, Jill and Common, but I would make it a more bi coastal thing and add these groups. Zion-I (like you didn’t know), the whole Living Legends Crew, Little Brother, Lone Catalyst, Goapele, Blackalicious and since the fugees reunited at chappelles I would hit em up with a double....the return of Digable Planets, and the return of A Tribe Called Quest I know it sounds like a lot but trust me soon as that stand up bass from cool like dat hits, and then say like Award Tour, or Buggin Out after the Digable Planets set people would lose it. Besides it would be free like Chapelle’s so I doubt anybody would complain. I think some special guest appearances would have to happen too but if I told you who I had in mind then I’d have to kill you....actually I just haven’t taken the time to think up who it would be yet. But hey no doubt it would be a good time.
So until I blog again......
E-Z
well on Monday I got to see Dave Chapelle’s Block Party, and it was pretty *expletive deleted* cool. Every single performer was on point for what you got to see of them (more on that later) Chapelle was funny as always not that I ever doubted he would be. I mean you had the Roots, Mos Def, Kweli, Common, Kanye, Erykah Badu, Jill Scott, Dead Prez , an impressive marching band, and of course the on stage reunion of the Fugees. To top that off I saw it with my special friend who I talked a bit about in my last entry so that just made the night better anyway. As far as the movie goes I will be getting it when it comes out on dvd but I am dissapointed in one thing, and that is that they just didn’t show enough of the performances. I understand they had to cram a lot into a certain amount of time but hey I would’ve been willing to sit their longer. Hopefully the dvd will either be extended or have some of the performances as special features. The best performances of the movie I think had to be when mighty Mos Def, and Talib Kweli did their Blackstar classic Definition with a live band.....one word HOTNESS. Jill Scott brought the house down too but when doesn’t she, Kanye and the marching band doing Jesus Walks was nice as ever too, and of course the whole Fugees performance of Nappy Heads (been a long long time since I heard that one) and Ms. Hill Killing us all softly with her song she even missed a line in the song but she made up for it very quickly. It was a beautiful thing truly it was. Hopefully also with the success of the block party people will start realizing that intelligent hip hop still exist and we will see a shift back to it in the mainstream. So that was fun but afterwards I began to wonder if I was going to host a block party who would I have perform at it (this is of course assuming I could pull this off...anybody ever see wayne’s world 2 it could happen). Well I thought about it and yes I would have some of the acts from this one return basically Mos and Kweli, The Roots, Jill and Common, but I would make it a more bi coastal thing and add these groups. Zion-I (like you didn’t know), the whole Living Legends Crew, Little Brother, Lone Catalyst, Goapele, Blackalicious and since the fugees reunited at chappelles I would hit em up with a double....the return of Digable Planets, and the return of A Tribe Called Quest I know it sounds like a lot but trust me soon as that stand up bass from cool like dat hits, and then say like Award Tour, or Buggin Out after the Digable Planets set people would lose it. Besides it would be free like Chapelle’s so I doubt anybody would complain. I think some special guest appearances would have to happen too but if I told you who I had in mind then I’d have to kill you....actually I just haven’t taken the time to think up who it would be yet. But hey no doubt it would be a good time.
So until I blog again......
E-Z
Monday, March 06, 2006
Infatuation
In taking stock of my love life or lack there of throughout the years I’ve come to the conclusion that I have never truly been in love before. I have been infatuated many a time though. Infatuation is a real tough thing. I wouldn’t call it an artificial emotion per say but then again in a sense thats how it can come off. I think about when people talk about love at first sight and I wonder why I haven’t experienced or to my knowledge nobody has experienced that with me. I’m speaking in purely relationship terms as far as falling for somebody as opposed to say the first time somebody see’s their child or niece or nephew because I can say with much honesty that the first time I saw my niece Maya and then a few years later my nephew Malik, and even more recentlly my niece Jayden I loved those kids immediately but anybody with a functioning brain knows that those are two very different types of love. My point in all of this is that nobody experiences “love at first sight”. It’s infatuation. That isn’t to say that it cannot grow into love because I think that is how it starts. Something attracts you to that person the way they dress, talk, look, think, even smell. From what you see they fit some sort of ideal you’ve condured in your mind to the perfect mate or something like that. Thing is and this is I think obvious is that you can’t really and trully love somebody until you get to know them. Oddly enough the best description of this came from Brad Pitt of all people. I read that he said “I don’t believe in love at first sight but infatuation, true love is something that grows over time”. I don’t know about you but personally I think that for as simply put as that is, its really deep and really true. Now the only real reason I am writing this is well because I am quite infatuated with a young lady right now. I’ve actually even managed to take a risk and actually tell her how much I like her and she responded very positively to it. At this juncture we are still friends which is difficult for me but it is also very necessary because we do still need to get to know each other. We’ve only been out a couple times and talk on at least a weekly basis usually at least twice sometimes more. Yet despite the fact that I don’t know her so well she is constantly on my mind. Like I said before she seems to fit the ideal I’ve come up with in my head My writing this is kind of reminding myself is that it is not that serious yet and that I need to step back and breathe easy and let things flow. That is so much easier said than done but hey gotta try. Living in Pittsburgh where from my observation relationships tend to be disasters (ask anybody who lives here) I know one of the reasons for this is because people meet and lets say three days later they are exclusively dating and like 4 months after that talking about marriage. In a word that’s insanity. It may also help to explain why divorce rates are so high in this area and in the country as a whole. But I think that is getting off the main topic. The point from that I am trying to make (and in all honesty remind myself) is that fool’s rush in don’t be foolish take your time good things come to those who wait, and whatever other well known phrases apply. I think though one of things that makes it also so difficult is that I am very new to this type of thing. I mean I am going to be 25 at the end of this month and have never been on what I consider a real date let alone been in a relationship. Truth be told this is the first girl I have ever told face to face how I feel about her. It had to be one of the hardest and scariest things I have ever done in my life but afterwards I have a little more self confidence than I had before hand so that is a bonus. Still though that fear of rejection remains. So basically just going to have to wait and see how it turns out fully expecting the best but being prepared for the worst, and just as importantly taking it one day at a time.
E-Z
In taking stock of my love life or lack there of throughout the years I’ve come to the conclusion that I have never truly been in love before. I have been infatuated many a time though. Infatuation is a real tough thing. I wouldn’t call it an artificial emotion per say but then again in a sense thats how it can come off. I think about when people talk about love at first sight and I wonder why I haven’t experienced or to my knowledge nobody has experienced that with me. I’m speaking in purely relationship terms as far as falling for somebody as opposed to say the first time somebody see’s their child or niece or nephew because I can say with much honesty that the first time I saw my niece Maya and then a few years later my nephew Malik, and even more recentlly my niece Jayden I loved those kids immediately but anybody with a functioning brain knows that those are two very different types of love. My point in all of this is that nobody experiences “love at first sight”. It’s infatuation. That isn’t to say that it cannot grow into love because I think that is how it starts. Something attracts you to that person the way they dress, talk, look, think, even smell. From what you see they fit some sort of ideal you’ve condured in your mind to the perfect mate or something like that. Thing is and this is I think obvious is that you can’t really and trully love somebody until you get to know them. Oddly enough the best description of this came from Brad Pitt of all people. I read that he said “I don’t believe in love at first sight but infatuation, true love is something that grows over time”. I don’t know about you but personally I think that for as simply put as that is, its really deep and really true. Now the only real reason I am writing this is well because I am quite infatuated with a young lady right now. I’ve actually even managed to take a risk and actually tell her how much I like her and she responded very positively to it. At this juncture we are still friends which is difficult for me but it is also very necessary because we do still need to get to know each other. We’ve only been out a couple times and talk on at least a weekly basis usually at least twice sometimes more. Yet despite the fact that I don’t know her so well she is constantly on my mind. Like I said before she seems to fit the ideal I’ve come up with in my head My writing this is kind of reminding myself is that it is not that serious yet and that I need to step back and breathe easy and let things flow. That is so much easier said than done but hey gotta try. Living in Pittsburgh where from my observation relationships tend to be disasters (ask anybody who lives here) I know one of the reasons for this is because people meet and lets say three days later they are exclusively dating and like 4 months after that talking about marriage. In a word that’s insanity. It may also help to explain why divorce rates are so high in this area and in the country as a whole. But I think that is getting off the main topic. The point from that I am trying to make (and in all honesty remind myself) is that fool’s rush in don’t be foolish take your time good things come to those who wait, and whatever other well known phrases apply. I think though one of things that makes it also so difficult is that I am very new to this type of thing. I mean I am going to be 25 at the end of this month and have never been on what I consider a real date let alone been in a relationship. Truth be told this is the first girl I have ever told face to face how I feel about her. It had to be one of the hardest and scariest things I have ever done in my life but afterwards I have a little more self confidence than I had before hand so that is a bonus. Still though that fear of rejection remains. So basically just going to have to wait and see how it turns out fully expecting the best but being prepared for the worst, and just as importantly taking it one day at a time.
E-Z
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